do you realize, we're floating in space

i don't know what this is
it feels like a familiar feeling. a comfortable one.
but maybe it's dangerous and i can't sense it yet
but right now it feels fine, and feels like i've been in this pit before
ive been here before
it never really ends well, but its nice while it lasts
i dont know

we really never know anything for certain
only of what we feel in the moment
and that's the only time when we're truly living

so why should i ruin it with thinking.
why should i think about it. i'll just let it be. and let it out when i have the opportunity
when the time's right

but in the meantime almost the only thing on my mind is him
i want to expresss all of this music all the butterflies all the expanding happy stomache sinking feeling with him
i want him to know, without words

what a wicked thing to do to make me dream of you

graaaaaaaalj; it's so unexpected. i never thought i would feel this for someone like this
im scared that what i saw in him, was someone else.
and if it wasn't, then i want to get to know him more
pleaseeeeeeeeee i really need to

are you not the slightest bit confused, just the truth