maybe i just miss that,.. or maybe we all miss that.

i miss the days when people used to be humble. so what happened there? my fault. your fault. our own faults. i'll admit it, but if you keep denying it, nothing will ever get better... and i'm sick of acting 'humble' when everyone else shows that they are overly confident. even when they aren't. and i'm really tired. of seeming like i'm not taking myself seriously enough.. but im just letting things be. not criticizing your every word. and not being overly excited. maybe i come off as boring. but maybe its for your advantage. maybe i'm just being nice. maybe i'm being too nice.

or maybe those days never existed.
existing or not, either way i would like to steer my way back there. even if "there" is just a 'figment of my imagination' or pigment like i used to say. i just am reluctant to believe that overconfidence is secretly attractive to us human beings, i want to deny that that's what we all want to aim for.
i want to deny it, but somehow the truth of the whole thing is splurging out like a roll of belly fat from some worn out blue jeans right in front of the mirror.

so how can i change it. when can i change it. i'm ready world but i can't fight you
just no more messing around. no more weakness. no more getting sucked in. i'm not that. i'm honest and i'm me. and even though i don't know who me is , i know me enough to know that i'm not you, so i won't give in to your lies
even if it means i'll have days where i would like to drown in my own sorrow like french fries soaked up in ketchup
even if it means that only i know that what i'm crying for is something greater than me.
i'll have to take them, it's a part of it. but i can't lose focus.
it's time to make it happen. we know the drill. let's just get something started
let's start taking ourselves a little more serious.
let's start taking ourselves a little less serious.

we're overdoing it. we're over-thinking it. let's just relax and let it be
without getting lazy. it's possible. it's completely possible. it's not that hard. it's easier than we know