Monday, November 23, 2015

today i did something that was thrilling
i felt like i couldn't do it, so i did it.


i feel like i can't do many things, and so i don't.

but i'm starting to feel like i should.

opposite action.

rain slowly falling softly hitting the ground
and all of a sudden nothing
its all gone
i think i understand now why i can't choose
because when i'm feeling good i want to do everything
and when i'm feeling bad i want to do nothing




Thursday, November 19, 2015

ooo wooo oo.
what happened? today was a day just like most of them. i probably won't remember in a couple days what happened today. unless i do this:

got up brushed my teef ate cereal zee ol raisin bran cept it had cranberries too and yogurt raisins and it wasn't called raisin bran. then went and had fast food what a bad bad decision. but hey sometimes i feel like a bad girl. i've been feeling that way a lot more recently. taking extra donuts at the super market for half the price. then i went to the cet meeting with my personal coach and we answered a couple homework questions like we will be doing for the next year i think. then i went to the library and rented a buncha movies music and magazines but no books ironically. then i came back home looked at a couple magazines boiled water for green beans went to the gym fell in love went to the grocery store pharmacy to get my synthroid and they said i had to pay and had no insurance so i went home again and ate ribs with my family.

right now im listening to lord huron.

Thursday, November 12, 2015

i don't know but at least i know that i don't know.
that makes it better right? no, because i haven't done anything to change it.
today i went to see mallory my CET coach. she told me what i missed in tuesday's class.
then i went and got food at mcdonalds. i shouldn't have but i just couldn't resist.
thats probably why i'm fat. so there's a slight chance it could be because of something else.
anyway, then i went and met with julie, my therapist.
then i went to arc and got a couple sweaters. then went home and my mom was making papas rellenas. about thirty of them to bring in for "treat day" at the school she works at tomorrow for the teachers and staff.
then gabrel and me sung part of an aaron carter's song.
then i was weird and half watched wheel of fortune.

the end
or maybe the beginning