Read over some of my old blog posts from forever ago. So sad. No not even sad, just horribly depressing. That's the problem. I focus too much on the negative and on myself.
I think that's why I stopped writing.
You know the thing on my profile: "I can look through anyone but me." But maybe I'm looking where I'm not supposed to look. Maybe I should stop looking at myself and start looking at the world in its entirety. For it is a beautiful world. I'm just somebody small whos barely living in it after all.
Maybe this statement should make me feel sad . but it doesn't. In this moment it makes me feel calm. I don't want to be big, I don't want to have power. I want to just be small. And let that be good enough.
